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lotsalipstick:

I really feel like physical confidence is just the beginning of this weird, strange journey to self acceptance. it doesn’t just end with loving your body but rather, begins there. its important to remember that there’s so much more beyond that and I cannot sit here and be a false idol to anyone. I’m learning to love myself in many ways. I’m learning to accept my mood swings, bad temper, and insecurities outside of body image issues. If I want to be an advocate for anything its total self awareness and complete acceptance. thats my struggle. 

I totally agree with everything you’re saying! I feel the same way when it comes to my depression and learning to love myself in all of its stages and in all times during my recovery. it’s a struggle to have really bad days/weeks/months and to feel like you can’t be a role model/speak out against self hate when it’s something youre engaged in

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tw anxiety

honestly I just feel like shit I already miss kevin so much and he only left an hour ago. when he’s with me the hole in my chest is lessened. it remains, but it doesn’t pulse and ache. I just wish there was a way to be together more often. I’m really trying to get my g2 but with my anxiety it’s so difficult for me under those circumstances to drive. it’s so fucking easy but not being neurotypical makes it harder. I just wish I could see him more than once a week. I wish I wish I wish I wish I wish that I didnt cry every time I thought about this. 

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UGH FINALLY I fucking finished my drama isu outline for tomorrow. I was so stressed about it but once I actually sat down and did it it didn’t take me too long. I actually stayed home today because I was so worried about all the homework I have to do. I literally have this huge list beside me of stuff that’s due and it’s like.. ugh shit. but then kevin texted me and said I might be able to see him tonight? I’ll be so incredibly happy if it happens. it’s been almost 2 weeks since I’ve seen him and I miss him so much. I just wanna get all this homework done so I can do nothing for the rest of the week

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why am I listening to 50 cent instead of doing my homework

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honestly don’t go on the-unpopular-opinions. it’s full of racist hateful cissexist racist bigots who hide anonymously. seriously WHAT THEFUCK IS UP WITH WHAT THEY POST

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tw depression

friends and family in my life need to understand that depression is different for everyone who experiences it. what worked to help your sister’s uncle’s best friend’s depression IS NOT GUARANTEED to help me. I’m fucking tired of people telling me to try a million things and assuring me that I will “feel better” when I do so because they do not know how I feel, they do not know my body or my depression. I know what works for me and I’m doing the best I can to help myself. I’m fucking tired of hearing that if I go to the gym/work out/lose weight I’ll feel “great” and it will “cure” my depression. I’m tired of people telling me that if I eat this, drink that, I’ll magically stop hating myself. 

YOU DO NOT FUCKING KNOW ME OR MY DEPRESSION OR MY BODY. YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT MAKES ME FEEL HAPPY, WHAT TRIGGERS ME, SO STOP TRYING TO PUSH STUFF ON ME AND SHOVING STUFF DOWN MY THROAT.

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tbh all I’ve done this weekend is lay in bed naked and watch inuyasha, masturbate and get high c00000l times

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luneprism: the-unpopular-opinions: I have absolutely nothing against those people who are homosexual or have any other sexuality other than straight. By all means, please, proceed to live your life in the lifestyle that you choose. What does bother me, though, is when a majority of these people claim to want to be treated as normal people, i.e. straight people. But you don’t see straight people throwing parades in celebration of being straight; you just don’t. If they wanted to be treated normal, they would continue their lives like a normal person. That means no parades exclaiming their happiness in pursuing their sexuality and no PDA. Now, I understand that straight people often execute PDA. When I speak of PDA, I’m NOT including hold hands, or a quick peck hello/goodbye. I feel those are normal and accepted. Those ‘normal’ people who perform extreme PDA in public tend to be trashy or looked down upon by others. I have seen countless examples of homosexuals participating in DNA and they get praise of how cute and admirable it is that they are able to embrace their sexuality and feelings for another, regardless of sex and what people think, in public. It’s not cute. There’s a time and place for affection. If it’s looked down upon when straight people perform PDA, then I’m going to look down on homosexuals who choose to perform PDA when they preach they wanted to be treated normally? A person’s love life is private and is concern for those involved only. The whole word does not need to be involved in your affair. I apologize in advance for any spelling mistakes, and my many grammatical errors. Absolutely nothing against homosexuals, just practice what you preach. You’re an idiot and totally missing the point. Gay pride festivals exist to make a statement that being LGBTQ is ok. They make that statement because there are so many gay people who are surrounded by people who think it’s wrong, which keeps them from accepting themselves and often leads to depression and suicide. The pride festivals create an environment that is safe for these people to be themselves. It shows them that there are communities out there where they will be welcome, safe and loved. The festivals are also a celebration of the achievements of the LGBTQ community. why isnt there a straight parade? why isnt there a white history month? why isnt there a cemetary for people who’re still alive? why isnt there a hospital for people who arent sick? HEELLOOO THE INJUSTICE

luneprism:

the-unpopular-opinions:

I have absolutely nothing against those people who are homosexual or have any other sexuality other than straight. By all means, please, proceed to live your life in the lifestyle that you choose.

What does bother me, though, is when a majority of these people claim to want to be treated as normal people, i.e. straight people. But you don’t see straight people throwing parades in celebration of being straight; you just don’t. If they wanted to be treated normal, they would continue their lives like a normal person. That means no parades exclaiming their happiness in pursuing their sexuality and no PDA.

Now, I understand that straight people often execute PDA. When I speak of PDA, I’m NOT including hold hands, or a quick peck hello/goodbye. I feel those are normal and accepted. Those ‘normal’ people who perform extreme PDA in public tend to be trashy or looked down upon by others.

I have seen countless examples of homosexuals participating in DNA and they get praise of how cute and admirable it is that they are able to embrace their sexuality and feelings for another, regardless of sex and what people think, in public. It’s not cute. There’s a time and place for affection. If it’s looked down upon when straight people perform PDA, then I’m going to look down on homosexuals who choose to perform PDA when they preach they wanted to be treated normally? A person’s love life is private and is concern for those involved only. The whole word does not need to be involved in your affair.

I apologize in advance for any spelling mistakes, and my many grammatical errors.

Absolutely nothing against homosexuals, just practice what you preach.

You’re an idiot and totally missing the point. Gay pride festivals exist to make a statement that being LGBTQ is ok. They make that statement because there are so many gay people who are surrounded by people who think it’s wrong, which keeps them from accepting themselves and often leads to depression and suicide. The pride festivals create an environment that is safe for these people to be themselves. It shows them that there are communities out there where they will be welcome, safe and loved. The festivals are also a celebration of the achievements of the LGBTQ community.

why isnt there a straight parade? why isnt there a white history month? why isnt there a cemetary for people who’re still alive? why isnt there a hospital for people who arent sick? HEELLOOO THE INJUSTICE

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I think what pisses me off the most about white privilege is that we can go to a foreign country, not knowing the culture or language and 9 times out of 10 be accepted with open arms by society for “taking a risk” “doing something cool” “trying new things” but as soon as someone from another culture or country comes to, say, Canada or the US, people get all up in arms about “wow people come here and they dont even speak our language/know anything about our policies?!?!” it’s fucking disgusting. why is that when white people travel we become enlightened and better people but when others do the same thing they’re frowned upon?

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what doesn’t kill you
leaves scars
ruins your lungs
dries out all your tears
leaves you lying awake at 4 in the morning
wishing you weren’t alive
—c.c.  (via lungs-)

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im so high i need to walk to the store to get brownies and munchy stuff but i like cant move… wha.a.tt….

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I’m finally high and wow it feels so nice except I’m still feeling not nice you know? but that’s okay because it gets tucked away for a while

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honestly I am just so fucking frustrated right now and done with everything. I feel like I really cant win with you no matter what I do

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I just need everyone in my house to leave so I can get hella high without being disturbed

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honestly I’m just really fucking angry. I hate when men try to talk over women about sexism and misogyny and they cry about reverse sexism and how ‘SOMETHING SEXIST HAPPENED TO THEM ONCE’ when really it was just a woman being rude, or someone being inconsiderate. as someone who has dealt/deals with sexism in her life I think it’s fucking shit that men get to walk around and pretend it doesnt happen. 

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